Courage to open up your heart after having it closed for so long

To let your heart be open to both yourself and to others is not only a scary thing, it is an immensely hard thing to do. And at any day and any time, something might happen to you that makes you close your heart. Not only to others, but maybe even to yourself.

            To lock down your own heart is the beginning of a lonely life. Just because this one thing happened to you it will be so, so hard to let people in in the future. And when you finally do and the person doesn’t respond  - it hurts so bad that you’re even more scared to let people in, and you close yourself down even more.

            In the end you’re unable to open up your heart because there’s so many persons that have let you down. Your life is now lonely and hurtful. Your always wearing a mask that tells people you’re OK, pretending to be strong. One day your pot will start to burst and everything will boil over - until you once again open up to someone. If you’re lucky that one person will listen to you and pull you up, and you can slowly start to heal. You'll learn to open up and hopefully there are people along the way that can support you, and I pray that that someone never let you down so you fall right back down.

            But if you’re not lucky, I’m afraid the spiral will continue downwards – until that day someone comes along and listens to you, sees you or lend you a helping hand, so that you finally can start to climb upward and start to heal. It’s a long way up and even if it is that simple, its not easy. All it takes is one person willing to love you for who you are – all your luggage, all your failures, wrongdoings, good and bad sides.

            I hope this one person, who has the power to change everything for you, also has the strength and heart to love you when you can’t accept their love - when you don't believe that you're lovable. A person that has the ability to lift you up from your deepest shadows, make you laugh again, and for one moment forget all your troubles. Someone who has the patience to be able to give you the greatest gifts of all – your life back.

            This person – or these persons – is more important than they'll ever realise.

Thank you.